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Sunday, April 5, 2009;3:16 AM Y

It Starts Here

There's a Conference with Haruna, Agnes, Priya...

Nice to have the girls talkings now and then...

And finally I'm done with my Exams... its such a relief la... You've got no idea how happy i was when i put my pen down even though i had worries about the paper. But yea.. its over... :)

Well.. The whole day was ok... busy with exam... then some time suba called... was talkin to her.

Anyway the issue that really bothered me was about some of my friends. Last time when we were young there were mistakes that leads to the family to involve in. And when parents get involve with such things they will never blame their children but the friends. Its so fucking frustrating la. They are ought to be the most typical indian families. I just dont understand why people are so selfish and unfair.

Well I'm one of those friends who got affected by my friends. Sorry if your one of those friends reading my post but its really bothering me alot.

When i knew that my friend is going in a wrong way, I actually tried to help then by telling them and advising them but they never listen. When things goes in a wrong way and when the parents know that, they will directly put the blame on the friends. They will say the friend actually teach the children.

Like what the fuck la. Why cant parents accept the fact that their children are also capable of doing mistakes that they can never imagine. And why cant they be responsible enough to dicipline their kids instead of putting the blame on other kids and bad mouth.

Such parents have no idea how much it affects a child.

I'm one of those who was affected and i'm trying to overcome things.

My friends mother is still not happy with me even after so many years. And the point is... i didnt do anything bad and i'm carrying a bad image towards their family and relatives. The most irritating part is that all of us are grown up and the parents are holding bad image/impression.

Its really sickening to see such people. I really hope the next generation would not do the same mistake.

Everyone does mistakes. We must learn how to admit and amend them instead of throwing the blame at someone else.

I really hope such things change in the future.

Maya

Friday, April 3, 2009;4:10 AM Y

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I'm really so moody... I'm so lost...

I had a not-bad-day. Met Agnes for few hours. Came home and start studying. Saturday exams. This module is really tougher then i thought. FOundation Psychology. Even though its my Favorite subject... I find it super difficult. Beacuse i didnt attend more then half a lesson since i fell and broke my leg. So much to catch up. 2 more days left for exam.

I was quiet releived that I've finally come to the last module. Ive another one more month to go. One more subject to go. Starting from Monday. After May, I've offically finished my diploma. I really can't for the day where i could hold my cert in my hands. Yes this diploma means alot to me.

Since i've only one month of studies left, i should be starting to plan what to do next. I feel its already late though. I want to further my studies! I'm definietly not stopping with diploma. Firstly... I need a job. Its so freaking hard to get a job now. YEa... Crisis... I really wanna get out of this country. I really wish i could persue my studies in Australia... I really really wish for it. I have the interest and the ability but i dont have the money. :( That's kinda irritating me alot.

So since i've no choice, i want to do my degree in SIM. After Aus... this is what i want. No other school. SIM. I want to do BSc in Psychology and graduate with a honours. But i need money to study as well. Nothing comes free i know. The requirments for this course is to be 21 yrs and above and i must have a full time job.

In june, I'm turning 21. But how on earth am i suppose to get a job? When i was looking for a job with only a N level Cert, They needed O Levels. When i had O Level they need A Level or Diploma. Now that i have a Diploma they are asking for Degree. OMG... I'm so mad. And even if there's one who asks for Diploma only, they need experience.

How am i suppose to be experienced when noone is willing to hire a fresh graduate?

Its really sickening. And above that, there are always racisim going on indirectly. Of course, Singapore in a Multi-Racial Country, But there are many people who don't accept us.

Some companies, infact almost 80% Wants people who knows how to speak chinese language. Iam definietly sending my kids to do chinese language as mother tounge. If not they can never survive here. Or i Rather wish to go to a country where they only speak one language. Its more easier.

I'm soooooooooooo mad about my situation right now. I must have a job that has got to do with Counselling, Patients or Hospitals and then i need to find cash to persue my education.

I just dont understand why god gives people so much of money when they don't use it wisely or for a good reason but those who knows and needs the money for good has nothing.

Even the god is so unfair at times.

Haiz... I'm soooooooo annoyed with myself. I've got exams tomorrow. haiz... I need a JOB!!!

I will not stop whinning... i think i should stop here.

Thanks for taking the time to read what was on ma mind. Do comment on my post.

its 4:44am!

Nitez..

Thursday, April 2, 2009;8:19 PM Y

It Starts Here

hmmm..... itz been a long time since i blog!!!! missed bloggin...
haha.. today i was happy... the whole day i was muggin on ma book.. i looked as though i was studyin... but yea i didnt even go to the third page... hahaha... was online the whole day then was chatting with haruna and selvam...

selvam was soooooo funny... hahaha.always makes me laugh!

Around 9 plus... i was toking to agnes... and then hawna called...I put her in Confer... Then siva came on the line aslo... It was really a long time i spoke to him... i really missed him badly... so once i heard his voice i was excited and the usual stuffs... Variya thingy... haha.. then suddenly got a msg.. and surprisingly it was from PRiya at 12 to 1am... then i asked her to call as well... After that it was really fun... Very....

I went back to the olden days... not so old couple of years back... haha... we always used to tok ova the phone and talk the whole night... And i was happy that priya was with us again... Siva was scaring me.... Agnes makes things worse and i was walking like a fool in the hall dont know where to go... haha...

Then after some time ma mum came and screamed at me so i had to cut the line... lolx... when i asked everyone to call.. haruna and siva didnt call... so i was toking to priya and agnes...

The sad part was... Suba wasnt in the confer... even though things are not like last time... she still have the same place in ma heart... While everyone was on the line talkin.. i was thinkin of her... i got reminded of those years where i priya suba and siva always hang out...

So many things happen in such a short time... i do miss those days... but i think our lives are going to be much more happier and fun then it was. The group is getting bigger actually. hahah....

I'm off to bed now.. its already 5am!!!

MOrning!

zzzzz............