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Friday, April 3, 2009;4:10 AM Y

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I'm really so moody... I'm so lost...

I had a not-bad-day. Met Agnes for few hours. Came home and start studying. Saturday exams. This module is really tougher then i thought. FOundation Psychology. Even though its my Favorite subject... I find it super difficult. Beacuse i didnt attend more then half a lesson since i fell and broke my leg. So much to catch up. 2 more days left for exam.

I was quiet releived that I've finally come to the last module. Ive another one more month to go. One more subject to go. Starting from Monday. After May, I've offically finished my diploma. I really can't for the day where i could hold my cert in my hands. Yes this diploma means alot to me.

Since i've only one month of studies left, i should be starting to plan what to do next. I feel its already late though. I want to further my studies! I'm definietly not stopping with diploma. Firstly... I need a job. Its so freaking hard to get a job now. YEa... Crisis... I really wanna get out of this country. I really wish i could persue my studies in Australia... I really really wish for it. I have the interest and the ability but i dont have the money. :( That's kinda irritating me alot.

So since i've no choice, i want to do my degree in SIM. After Aus... this is what i want. No other school. SIM. I want to do BSc in Psychology and graduate with a honours. But i need money to study as well. Nothing comes free i know. The requirments for this course is to be 21 yrs and above and i must have a full time job.

In june, I'm turning 21. But how on earth am i suppose to get a job? When i was looking for a job with only a N level Cert, They needed O Levels. When i had O Level they need A Level or Diploma. Now that i have a Diploma they are asking for Degree. OMG... I'm so mad. And even if there's one who asks for Diploma only, they need experience.

How am i suppose to be experienced when noone is willing to hire a fresh graduate?

Its really sickening. And above that, there are always racisim going on indirectly. Of course, Singapore in a Multi-Racial Country, But there are many people who don't accept us.

Some companies, infact almost 80% Wants people who knows how to speak chinese language. Iam definietly sending my kids to do chinese language as mother tounge. If not they can never survive here. Or i Rather wish to go to a country where they only speak one language. Its more easier.

I'm soooooooooooo mad about my situation right now. I must have a job that has got to do with Counselling, Patients or Hospitals and then i need to find cash to persue my education.

I just dont understand why god gives people so much of money when they don't use it wisely or for a good reason but those who knows and needs the money for good has nothing.

Even the god is so unfair at times.

Haiz... I'm soooooooo annoyed with myself. I've got exams tomorrow. haiz... I need a JOB!!!

I will not stop whinning... i think i should stop here.

Thanks for taking the time to read what was on ma mind. Do comment on my post.

its 4:44am!

Nitez..